The Beatitudes (Brian Zahnd Version)

I’m not sure what social media Brian Zahnd is on these days, but he shared his own retelling of Jesus’ Beatitudes on Facebook yesterday and they’re beautiful enough that I’d like to capture them here.

The Beatitudes (BZV)

Blessed are those who are poor at being spiritual,
For the kingdom of heaven is well-suited for ordinary people.

Blessed are the depressed who mourn and grieve,
For they create space to encounter comfort from another.

Blessed are the gentle and trusting, who are not grasping and clutching,
For God will personally guarantee their share as heaven comes to earth.

Blessed are those who ache for the world to be made right,
For them the government of God is a dream come true.

Blessed are those who give mercy,
For they will get it back when they need it most.

Blessed are those who have a clean window in their soul,
For they will perceive God when and where others don’t.

Blessed are the bridge-builders in a war-torn world,
For they are God’s children working in the family business.

Blessed are those who are mocked and misunderstood for the right reasons,
For the kingdom of heaven comes to earth amidst such persecution.

ne cadant in obscurum

I am singing in the Orchestra Iowa chorus for the spring performance of Mozart’s Requiem and we’re in rehearsals right now. And I know this is a hazard of learning and performing music, but I have had this single phrase stuck in my head every day for TWO FULL WEEKS at this point.

Not sure what it is about this particular line. Maybe the bit of time I spent working out in my head that big jump did it… a major seventh is a fun one to navigate, and in this spot the tenors are the only ones singing, so it’s naked and we really need to nail it.

Whatever the reason, I’ll be glad when some other musical phrase supplants this one as my persistent earworm. I mean, I love me some Mozart, but this has been long enough.

Another year of baseball blackouts

So, I’m a Cubs fan and want a streaming option to watch the Cubs games.

As a baseball fan in the US, you have two basic options to watch your team play: get them on a regional sports network usually available through cable or streaming TV, or, subscribe to the MLB.tv streaming package.

MLB.tv

On the face of it, MLB.tv isn’t a bad deal. For $150/year you get access to live streams and replays of all the MLB teams’ games. Oh, but there’s an asterisk: all “out of market” teams’ games. And here’s the fun: if you’re a baseball fan who lives in, oh, Eastern Iowa, there are six, count ’em, SIX MLB teams who count as “in market”. Those teams, and their relative distances from Cedar Rapids, Iowa:

  • Chicago Cubs (258 miles)
  • Chicago White Sox (255 miles)
  • Minnesota Twins (255 miles)
  • Kansas City Royals (315 miles)
  • Saint Louis Cardinals (289 miles)
  • Milwaukee Brewers (233 miles)

That’s right, for $150 per season I can get the privilege of streaming any MLB game as long as that game doesn’t include one of those six teams, notwithstanding the fact that if I want to attend one of those team’s home games I have a MINIMUM FOUR HOUR DRIVE to get there.

Other Options

So, let’s rule out MLB.tv because of their arcane blackout restrictions. The Cubs launched Marquee Network, their own cable TV / streaming channel for just Cubs content, back in 2020. So sure, it’s a regional sports network, right? It should be available on local systems and packages.

Sure, if I want to live in the dark ages and get a cable streaming package from Mediacom, I can pay them $136/month for the privilege. Given their service history around here, that’s a non-starter.

I have two streaming TV options for Marquee Network as a part of live TV streaming providers. Notably, neither of these are top-tier providers (e.g. YouTube TV, Hulu, Sling); they’re also-rans who are either overly expensive (DirectTV Streaming, $107/month) or still expensive and missing other key channels (Fubo, $95/month + “additional taxes & fees”, and doesn’t have TNT, TBS, or Food Network).

I have been a subscriber to Sling, Hulu, and YTTV at various times in the past. I’ve stuck with YTTV for the past few years for the convenience in family profiles and thanks to some package pricing with other Google-based services I subscribe to. But once again in 2025 they have no agreement with Marquee Network, so, no Cubs games that way.

So, What’s a Guy To Do?

That leaves me with really two options:

  1. Subscribe to Marquee Network’s streaming service directly. For $20/month I can watch Cubs games live (note: NOT replays, just live games). This is such an inferior option to MLB.tv it’s ludicrous. For basically the same money: ALL THE GAMES + replays (*out of market teams only) on one hand, or only Cubs live games on the other.

  2. Just don’t watch the Cubs.

Honestly, I’ll probably end up going with Option #2.

Or as an online acquaintance pointed out this morning, there’s

Option #3: pick another team to cheer for, and make sure that team is out-of-market. He was suggesting the Detroit Tigers. And, I mean, that would work. (It works for me in hockey where my team is the Dallas Stars!) But as a dude in his late 40s it might be time to play the Old Dog/New Tricks card. After 25 years invested as a Cubs fan it’s a habit that’s hard to break.

Come on, MLB, do better.

Opening Day 2025

I don’t remember when I became a baseball fan.

I remember playing teeball when I was in elementary school. I remember my folks taking the family to an Omaha Royals game about that same time. I remember watching parts of the 1985 World Series (Royals / Cardinals) and watching Bret Saberhagen win Game 7 for the Royals to clinch. I was 8.

We moved to Texas when I was 13 and I pretty quickly became a Rangers fan. I listened to so many games on the radio. In the summers when I got really bored I got a baseball scorebook and would keep score while listening to the game. We went to several Rangers games as a family over the years. I remember seeing Nolan Ryan pitch, including in a game where Bo Jackson came up to bat against him. My brother’s friend somehow got tickets to the 1995 MLB All-Star Game and we got the tickets for free as long as I could drive us up to Arlington for the game. (I still can’t believe my mom let us do that.)

When I moved to Iowa I needed a new team. Iowa famously lies in a terrible MLB TV blackout area; there are 6 teams in surrounding states but none of them in Iowa. I could’ve gone any one of several directions, but I fell in with a bunch of Cubs fans, and so a Cubs fan I became.

Cubs fans live by the Dread Pirate Roberts’ credo: “Get used to disappointment.” Save for one shining season in 2016, my 25 years of Cubs fandom has largely been enough winning to keep me motivated to keep up with the team, and then a whole lot of just missing the playoffs or dropping a quick wildcard game and exiting early.

The past several years my tradition has been to wear a Cubs jersey to work on baseball’s Opening Day. As I joke, this is the one day of the year I can be sure that my team has at least a share of first place. This year the Cubs got a head start on opening day with a two-game series in Tokyo against the Dodgers. By the time I got out of bed this morning the Cubs were already losing the game, and I had forgotten to dig out my jersey last night, so I missed the traditional garb. Maybe I’ll dig it out for tomorrow and see if the Cubs can win the second game of the series to at least pull an even record.

Baseball is a beautiful, patient, detailed game, and I’m thankful once again for the occasional hours of respite it provides from the craziness of the rest of the world. Let’s play ball.

American culture: a 'negative world' for Christianity?

My friend Charles pointed me to an NYT profile of Aaron Renn, a businessman from Indiana who gained attention for framing current American culture as being hostile to conservative Christianity, a “negative world” that developed somewhere around 2016.

Renn lives in Carmel, Indiana, a city he describes as proof that “we can have an America where things still work”. Ruth Graham, the author of the profile, compares it to Mayberry or Bedford Falls. The references seem clear enough: this idyllic community hearkens back to 1950s white middle-class America, a golden age in the minds of conservative Christianity. (Less of a golden age for, say, African Americans.) Carmel is an 80% white suburb in the middle of the 70% white Indianapolis metropolitan area. 95% of its residents are US Citizens. Renn describes this environment as “diversity that works”.

Why 2015?

As a child of evangelicalism who grew up in the 1980s and 1990s hearing that the culture was evil, biased against Christians, and an appropriate target for boycotts and hate, it surprised me that Renn’s viral idea was that the “positive world” phase of America lasted until 1994, and the “neutral world” lasted until 2015. What, in this version of history, was the magic event in 2015 that suddenly made America a negative place for Christians? Oh, of course: Obergefell. Because while Mayberry and Bedford Falls may have had a token minority from time to time, they for sure didn’t have any gay folks.

I have some questions.

The unstated assumptions in Renn’s view are begging to be examined. Is it good for Christians to be the dominant culture and dominant in politics? Does that make for a healthy, Jesus-like faith? Why does a Christian position need to be actively opposed to gay marriage? Why can’t Christians simply live with tolerance of their gay neighbors?

I suspect that Renn’s personal beliefs may be more interesting than the profile lets on. He seems very fond of nice public infrastructure and public funding for special education programs - things that are quite unpopular in the current conservative movement.

It’s not clear from this profile where Renn’s theological sympathies lie. Culturally he seems to be wishing for an Eden free not just from gays but also from boorishness, gambling, legalized drugs, and tattoos. Those issues don’t appeal widely enough to gather steam as a movement. But evangelical Christianity is apparently quick to latch on to the trinity of “sex, gender and race” as touchstones of a “secular orthodoxy” that make America a negative place for Christians.

The theologians quoted in the profile come largely from the neo-Reformed movement. Renn apparently got really into Tim Keller for a while, but concluded that Keller’s approach to culture is “insufficient” for the “negative world”. So now he wants to get more aggressive, pursuing societal and political power in a move he likens to the Hebrews conquering Canaan. It should come as no surprise, then, that Josh McPherson is the first pastor quoted in this profile. McPherson, who is hosting a podcast series to help pastors to minister in Renn’s “negative world”, was a primary disciple of Mark Driscoll, the pugilistic, misogynist church planter from Seattle who preached a gospel of (tattooed) hyper-manliness before eventually blowing up his church in scandal and eventually reemerging as a MAGA Pentecostal in Arizona.

It doesn’t add up.

I wish that Graham’s profile had dug further into some of Renn’s inconsistencies. Consider his opinions on his local town:

Carmel is thriving, in Mr. Renn’s view, because its Republican leaders have focused on things like public safety, low taxes, and excellent infrastructure and amenities, while avoiding the distractions of what he called “extreme ideologies,” like D.E.I. hiring practices or banning gasoline-powered lawn equipment.

How in the world do “excellent infrastructure and amenities” and robust public education (from which Renn’s son benefits) align with the current conservative push to get rid of as much government as possible?

And if I’d had any hair left to pull out, I would’ve lost it at this paragraph:

It is a familiar theme: Things may be bad, but liberals started it. The election of Mr. Trump as president is only possible in “negative world”, Mr. Renn said. In “positive world”, an extramarital affair tanked Gary Hart’s presidential campaign. In “neutral world”, Bill Clinton was damaged by his infidelity but survived politically. In “negative world”, with the safeguards of “Christian moral norms” out the window, it was too late for liberals to make any coherent critique of Mr. Trump’s open licentiousness.

On one hand, his point about the relative political damage of marital infidelity has decreased over the decades. But let’s stop and remember for a moment that Gary Hart and Bill Clinton were attacked by conservative Christian Republicans, claiming moral outrage against the infidelity. Why is it suddenly incumbent on the liberals to muster the moral outrage against Donald Trump?

There is no Mayberry to go back to.

Renn sure seems to want to return to his “positive world”, a utopia where you marry a nice church girl, have 2.5 kids and send them to school on their bikes down perfect sidewalks and trails past manicured lawns and picket fences, but where you don’t have to pay taxes to provide those amenities. A community that’s predominantly white, straight, and Christian, with a few token minorities to let you feel diverse and tolerant, and even fewer gays because you’ve run them off so you can feel righteous.

Just one problem: this utopia has never existed. And in the brief slice of 1950s America that Renn idealizes, the white Christian middle-class paradise was built on the backs of the poor, the minorities, and 95% marginal income tax rates for the wealthy.

Where is Jesus?

Notably absent from Renn’s arguments: any hint of concern about being like Jesus. Renn’s ideal apparently isn’t found in the Beatitudes, the Sermon on the Mount, or the Good Samaritan; rather it’s in Mayberry.

But a Christianity void of Jesus is no more than a moralistic shell designed to reclaim a bygone cultural hegemony. Indeed, the most Jesus-like perspective in the whole piece comes from a Muslim commentator:

…as a member of a religious minority for whom the United States has never been “positive world”, Muslim commentator Haroon Moghul said he did not see neutral- or negative-world occupancy as catastrophic.

“Just because wider society isn’t embracing me or rejoicing over me doesn’t mean I get to lash out in response,” he said. “The culture may be opposed to you, but that doesn’t mean you’re not legally and politically secure.”

Ironically, the new Christian hegemony forming under Donald Trump, praised by Renn, is working to ensure that those whom their culture opposes are in fact not legally or politically secure. Or even financially or physically secure.

I am wearily reminded of the trendy evangelical question from my youth: what would Jesus do?

The danger of sharpening the self-will of nations through religion

I’m slowly working through Niebuhr’s Moral Man and Immoral Society and goodness his observations are timely for today. I don’t know where he’s going with the second half of the book, but I’m looking forward to finding out.

This bit on the relationship of patriotism and religion is particularly relevant right now:

Patriotism is a form of piety which exists partly through the limitation of the imagination, and that limitation may be expressed by savants as well as by saints…

But since the claims of religion are more absolute than those of any secular culture the danger of sharpening the self-will of nations through religion is correspondingly greater.

Even when the religious sense of the absolute expresses itself, not in the sublimation of the will, but in the subjection of the individual will to the divine will, and in the judgment upon the will from the divine perspective, it may still offer perils to the highest social and moral life, even though it will produce some choice fruits of morality. One interesting aspect of the religious yearning after the absolute is that, in the contrast between the divine and the human, all lesser contrasts between good and evil on the human and historic level are obscured. Sin finally becomes disobedience to God and nothing else. Only rebellion against God, and only the impertinence of self-will in the sight of God, are regarded as sinful.

— Reinhold Niebuhr, Moral Man and Immoral Society, chapter 3, emphasis mine

This turned the light bulb on for me as to how so many Christians in my evangelical background are willing to turn a blind eye to social ills as long as personal piety is maintained.

Bullet points for the day after a run

Some thoughts after getting out for an outside run yesterday - the first time this year!

  • I always forget how good a full-body workout a run is.
  • Boy am I feeling it this morning. Still hit the gym per my usual routine but took it kind of easy, just loosening things up.
  • I need new running shoes. Didn’t realize how worn my current ones are.
  • I have a 14-year-old knee injury that still flares up about the end of mile 2. Will this be the year I break down and get it looked at?
  • All this serious running talk makes me sound like more of a jock than I really am. My best 5k time ever is only 26:something. That’s not very fast.
  • If I could get my knee fixed and not have it hurt, it might be fun to work on my 5k time.
  • It’s fun to run new places because they’re interesting, but running the same route in the same neighborhood is nice and familiar; you know all the landmarks and where the milemarkers and hills are.
  • It’s supposed to be 60F on Friday… time to do it again.

I'm all caught up...

Well, after 171 hours of listening starting back in 2023, I am finally caught up with the podcast A History of Rock Music in 500 Songs. This is one of those cases where the podcast medium perfectly lines up with the intent, since fair-use clips of music for illustration can be regularly inset in the show and give you insights into the music that a book could never provide.

Andrew Hickey has slowed his pace a good bit since he started the podcast. While I have doubts about whether he will ever actually make it to song #500, even through the first 177 songs he has provided me a wonderful background education about the development of rock music from the early 20th century up through the late 1960s.

Now that I’m caught up, I need to figure out what podcast becomes my next binge show. I’ve let my Filmspotting backlog get pretty big, I might do a quick scan through at least the review bits of those. Otherwise I’m open to suggestions!

It's almost MacBook time...

Almost four weeks ago I got approved to move to a MacBook Pro at work after years on a Dell laptop. Thanks to the red tape of corporate ordering, the dang thing still hasn’t arrived. If I’m lucky, this week sometime.

The Dell Laptop, only a couple years old, has an 8-core i7 processor, 32 GB of RAM (after begging an upgrade from IT), 500GB SSD, and a 15" screen. It gets about 90 minutes of battery life when it’s not plugged in, gets hot and runs the fan all the time, and weighs 5.5 lbs.

The MacBook Pro M4 Max, when it arrives: 14" screen, 14-core CPU, 36 GB of RAM, 1 TB SSD. 12+ hour battery life, and only 3.5 lbs - a full 2 lbs lighter.

All this and IT tells me that they don’t want to issue people Macs because the Windows PC provides a “superior user experience”. 😒

Defenselessness is what makes love indestructible

Fr. Matt Tebbe has a long Facebook post laying out how White Evangelicals in America have a supremacy problem. It’s a good read and compellingly argued, but what I want to share here is the comment conversation between Fr. Matt and Fr. Kenneth Tanner.

Fr. Kenneth:

The healing of this comes by revelation that Jesus Christ is humble and lowly of heart: the infant in the feed box, the criminal on the tree; to worship this God is to be in union with poverty.

This God joins us in the poverty of the grave, and only from that solidarity (with everyone) can we truly know anyone well or live well or die well. Trust in the story of Jesus is the undoing of supremacy.

If you want to know how a Christian can be attracted or seduced by worldly powers, just take a look at what they trust about Jesus Christ.

Fr. Matt:

yes and

Jesus has been (ab)used for centuries, seized and made king, crowned the face and name of supremacist demagoguery and oppression.

Jesus is largely rejected - his life and teaching - in two ways:

  1. that doesn’t work anymore and
  2. Jesus’s teaching isn’t possible/realistic to be obeyed - rather - it functions to bring us to the end of ourselves so we can be ‘saved by faith through grace’.

The paschal mystery is indeed the hope of the world- overcoming the slavery to death in our bodies as we live in love - and what we need in this moment is a robust political theology that makes this embodiment material, concrete, specific, tangible.

And back to Fr. Kenneth:

and that fruit is borne by bearing accurate witness to Jesus Christ … I’m not convinced the American Church knows the story of Jesus, and so we trust in false gods … good politics has its roots in good Christology

to put a finer point on it … God is revealed to us in poverty and surrender; God is poverty … defenselessnees is what makes love indestructible

I am so thankful for these men and their teaching.