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I'm all caught up...
Well, after 171 hours of listening starting back in 2023, I am finally caught up with the podcast A History of Rock Music in 500 Songs. This is one of those cases where the podcast medium perfectly lines up with the intent, since fair-use clips of music for illustration can be regularly inset in the show and give you insights into the music that a book could never provide.
Andrew Hickey has slowed his pace a good bit since he started the podcast. While I have doubts about whether he will ever actually make it to song #500, even through the first 177 songs he has provided me a wonderful background education about the development of rock music from the early 20th century up through the late 1960s.
Now that I’m caught up, I need to figure out what podcast becomes my next binge show. I’ve let my Filmspotting backlog get pretty big, I might do a quick scan through at least the review bits of those. Otherwise I’m open to suggestions!
It's almost MacBook time...
Almost four weeks ago I got approved to move to a MacBook Pro at work after years on a Dell laptop. Thanks to the red tape of corporate ordering, the dang thing still hasn’t arrived. If I’m lucky, this week sometime.
The Dell Laptop, only a couple years old, has an 8-core i7 processor, 32 GB of RAM (after begging an upgrade from IT), 500GB SSD, and a 15" screen. It gets about 90 minutes of battery life when it’s not plugged in, gets hot and runs the fan all the time, and weighs 5.5 lbs.
The MacBook Pro M4 Max, when it arrives: 14" screen, 14-core CPU, 36 GB of RAM, 1 TB SSD. 12+ hour battery life, and only 3.5 lbs - a full 2 lbs lighter.
All this and IT tells me that they don’t want to issue people Macs because the Windows PC provides a “superior user experience”. 😒
Defenselessness is what makes love indestructible
Fr. Matt Tebbe has a long Facebook post laying out how White Evangelicals in America have a supremacy problem. It’s a good read and compellingly argued, but what I want to share here is the comment conversation between Fr. Matt and Fr. Kenneth Tanner.
Fr. Kenneth:
The healing of this comes by revelation that Jesus Christ is humble and lowly of heart: the infant in the feed box, the criminal on the tree; to worship this God is to be in union with poverty.
This God joins us in the poverty of the grave, and only from that solidarity (with everyone) can we truly know anyone well or live well or die well. Trust in the story of Jesus is the undoing of supremacy.
If you want to know how a Christian can be attracted or seduced by worldly powers, just take a look at what they trust about Jesus Christ.
Fr. Matt:
yes and
Jesus has been (ab)used for centuries, seized and made king, crowned the face and name of supremacist demagoguery and oppression.
Jesus is largely rejected - his life and teaching - in two ways:
- that doesn’t work anymore and
- Jesus’s teaching isn’t possible/realistic to be obeyed - rather - it functions to bring us to the end of ourselves so we can be ‘saved by faith through grace’.
The paschal mystery is indeed the hope of the world- overcoming the slavery to death in our bodies as we live in love - and what we need in this moment is a robust political theology that makes this embodiment material, concrete, specific, tangible.
And back to Fr. Kenneth:
and that fruit is borne by bearing accurate witness to Jesus Christ … I’m not convinced the American Church knows the story of Jesus, and so we trust in false gods … good politics has its roots in good Christology
to put a finer point on it … God is revealed to us in poverty and surrender; God is poverty … defenselessnees is what makes love indestructible
I am so thankful for these men and their teaching.
Joyful and Unprofitable Pursuits
We will not be saved by our money, our weapons, or our technological virtuosity; we might be rescued by the joyful and unprofitable pursuits of love, beauty, and contemplation. No doubt this will all seem foolish to the shamans and magicians of pecuniary enchantment. But there are more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of on Wall Street or in Silicon Valley.
— Eugene McCarraher, from the prologue to The Enchantments of Mammon
Phew, already can tell this is gonna be a great book and I’m only through the prologue.
Bullet Points for a Monday Morning
- Weekend update: K15 took 3rd place overall in the toughest division at the regional Academic Decathalon competition. Waiting to hear whether her team scored well enough in total to make the state competition.
- Helped serve the Eucharist for the first time at our new church yesterday. Managed to not drop the bowl when offering wine for intinction.
- January we get almost no snow, and now the first week of February we have two snowstorms forecast? Bleh.
- Got a turntable for Christmas and find myself enjoying it so far. Not so much about sound quality as about a different listening experience. You can’t just push a button and skip a track! 20 minutes of listening straight through.
- Also in church news: got elected to the Vestry last week. Hopefully I can be useful.
- Before the vestry election, the pastor’s message was “if you’re getting worn out, raise your hand and say you need a break. Don’t wear yourself out.” Pretty sure I’ve never heard that message at any other church I’ve served at.
- I’ve become the guy who’s shopping for vintage sports coats online. 100% camel hair blazer? Let’s see if you’ll give me a deal…
- Yesterday after church we had a dessert auction to benefit our companion diocese in Eswatini. We bought… too many desserts. Many of them are in the process of being given away to friends, neighbors, and co-workers.
- I’m keeping the Tres Leches cake for myself.
Hang in there, friends.
It’s So Much
I looked at the calendar last Friday in weary disbelief. Trump has only been back in office for less than a week? It felt like much longer. All the weariness and the anger has started to pile up again after a four-year respite. Why can’t all the Republicans see the rank hypocrisy? Why don’t they care? Why did all the principles they taught me for 30 years suddenly go out the window?
There are some differences this time, though, and some lessons I’ve learned along the way that might help this time around.
Community Matters
Eight years ago the majority of my local faith community were Trump supporters, and I was the lonely, frustrated, confused voice in their evangelical wilderness. Near the end of Trump’s first term we left that community. We survived on online faith communities for a couple years before finally finding a supportive local church again. At the Episcopal church we don’t unite around politics, which means we still have Trump supporters in our midst, but we don’t hold onto MAGA principles as cultural norms. Local, weekly solidarity and encouragement makes a huge difference.
Managing my Attention Budget
Social media can be great; it can also be awful. We were not designed to know all the things all the time. In the immortal words of Inigo Montoya: “It’s too much. Let me sum up.” I can and need to budget my attention. Not burying my head in the sand about the chaos and evil that is being perpetrated on us by this administration, but also not listening to every anguished other person on social media reacting to it. I need to make sure that my attention is also drawn to the good, the beautiful, and the lovely. (Maybe that Philippians 4:8 message from my evangelical phase has some application here not in avoiding sin but in managing mentally in a difficult time!)
The Weight of the World
It’s a weird position to be in: as a cisgender, middle-aged white man I should be one of the folks least concerned about the new administration’s policies. If anything, they’re designed to promote and benefit people like me. And yet I’m horrified by so many of the actions they’re taking. I also have dear friends and family members who are not in the regime-preferred demographic and who will be directly affected. And I also want the best for them. And so these things weigh heavily. These issues matter, they must matter. We need to work against tyranny and to respect the dignity of every person. We need to love our neighbor as ourself, and welcome the immigrant and the stranger.
I have no idea how the next four years or the next four decades will play out; whether the fury of executive actions this week will flame out as they run up against organizational inertia and the national reality, or whether the second half of my life will be lived out in a country whose government looks very different than it did for the first half. (Who knew that all the “will you be ready for government persecution?” messages we got in youth group would suddenly become applicable when the Christians took power?) But I am mindful that most people throughout history have lived under governments as or more evil and corrupt than this government is shaping up to be, and those people have managed to live, thrive, even flourish. May it be so for us, in this place and time, as well.
My photo library backup strategy, circa 2025
We got our first digital camera in late 2003, when we knew we had our first kid on the way. Over the years an assortment of cameras has filled our digital photo collection. I’ve done only minimal collection management over the years, with my focus being mainly on ensuring I had good backups and didn’t lose anything.
For a long while I was using Google Photos as an online backup/library sharing service. This worked fine while I was only sharing photos with my wife, and while Google accommodated an unlimited number of photos. But eventually Google wanted to start charging money, and I wanted to be able to add my older children to the shared library as well. Since we’re an iPhone family, an Apple-based solution felt like the right way to go. So I’ve slowly been making the transition to a new setup, which just for grins I’m going to detail out in this post.
A few notes to set the scene:
- At this point we are taking all our photos with our iPhones. We don’t have any other cameras.
- I have already conceded that I’m going to pay Apple on a monthly basis for iCloud space, at a minimum so the family all has iPhone backups. That gives me enough space for a photo library, too.
The Old Way
My old strategy included:
- Google Photos app logged in to my Google account on both my phone and my wife’s phone
- PhotoSync app on both phones doing automated backups to our local Synology NAS
- Synology backup to Backblaze online
This worked fine for quite a while.
Moving to Apple Photos
When I decided to start using iCloud Photo Library and using Apple Photos as my primary storage/organization means I set up my main library on a big external drive hanging off a Mac Mini. I told it to import my photo backup from my Synology and walked away. A couple days later I came back and it looked like it was done. OK, fine. Eventually my wife did some more thorough inspection and noted that it failed hard on the import for everything before about 2019. So, I did a more structured walk through the import, importing one year at a time and more actively monitoring the imports to ensure they completed successfully. (I get an occasional network drop-out from the NAS for some reason that will kill the import mid-stream.)
Eventually that import was successfully completed, with just about 100,000 photos in the shared library. Apple Photos identified about 10k duplicate photos, which didn’t surprise me too much. I manually reviewed a bunch of them, concluded Photos was handling them correctly, and went ahead and told it to just go de-dupe the library. That got me down to just about 90,000 photos.
At this point we all realized that the Google Photos backup and PhotoSync apps weren’t going to be useful any more. Google Photos sees the full 90k photo Shared Library on your phone and tries to back it all up, immediately using up all your Google shared space. (Google then immediately tries to sell you more space. Pass.) PhotoSync does the same, saying “hey you have 90k new photos… let’s back them up to the Synology!”. Yay, more duplicates.
The New Way
The new solution looks something like this:
- iPhone photos go into the Shared Photo library when we take them. This stores a copy in the Apple iCloud Photo Library.
- The Photos app on the Mac mini sucks those into its library, creating a local copy.
- I’m running iCloud Photo Downloader on the Synology, which logs in to my iCloud account and pulls down a copy of all the photos in the Photo Library onto the Synology NAS.
- The Synology NAS photo folder gets backed up to an attached USB drive.
- Backblaze backup then puts that Synology backup up in the Backblaze cloud.
At that point I have two separate cloud copies saved in addition to three local copies, not counting whatever is stored on our phones. That feels secure enough to me. But the biggest win here for me is that the backup path is easier - no Google Photos app required, no PhotoSync app required. Just take photos, add them to the Shared Library, and everything else downstream just happens.
Review: The Widening of God's Mercy by Drs. Christopher and Richard Hays
There was no small amount of buzz accompanying the announcement of The Widening of God’s Mercy’s publication. Father and son, both Biblical scholars of some renown, publishing a volume where the elder would reverse his public and well-known position about same-sex relationships is not an event that most anyone had on their Evangelical Christianity 2024 bingo card. I was not immune to the anticipation, immediately pre-ordering the book. My eagerness was tempered only by the depth of my to-read shelf, which means I am only now reading and commenting on this book.
[Note: I found out only hours before writing this post that Dr. Richard Hays passed away less than two weeks ago at the age of 76, as the result of pancreatic cancer. May he rest in peace and rise in glory.]
The Widening of God’s Mercy, written by Dr. Richard B. Hays and his son Dr. Christopher B. Hayes, describes a stunning change of position on Christian acceptance of same-sex relationships. Richard had, in his 1996 book The Moral Vision of the New Testament, argued against their acceptance. His book has been used as a primary authority by many evangelicals over the past three decades, interpreting a handful of New Testament verses seemingly opposed to homosexuality as conclusive. And so this book comes as a genuine surprise. The book is concise, clear, easily readable, generous, and contrite. And yet for the life of me I can’t understand why this was their chosen approach to the question.

Widening makes the case that a careful reading of the Bible will show, contrary to traditional theological assertion, that God frequently changes his mind, being influenced by humans who appeal to God. The book is structured in three parts. The first part deals with Old Testament texts; the second with the New Testament, and the brief third part drawing conclusions.
Old Testament
The OT section is the most convincing in that respect, discussing texts from Genesis through the Prophets where the text blatantly describes God changing his mind. Traditional interpreters might argue instead that since God is, per theological agreement, unchangeable, that these texts must mean something more like humans came to a new understanding that looked like God changing God’s mind. Drs. Hays choose instead to take the text at face value: God changes his mind, and almost always in favor of more mercy and more inclusion. Good enough so far.
New Testament
The New Testament doesn’t include (at least to my recollection) any passages that explicitly describe God “changing his mind”. The second section of this book instead reviews a multitude of cases in the Gospels where Jesus brings a new, more expansive, more merciful interpretation of the OT law. Healing is appropriate on the Sabbath. Women are treated as fully equal to men. Prostitutes and sinners are embraced, not rejected.
It then spends its most significant time in Acts, examining Peter’s vision and experience with Cornelius, resulting in the church’s acceptance of Gentiles. This is the key interpretive text for the Hays’ as they argue for LGBTQ inclusion. They suggest three steps discerned from the Acts account of the subsequent Jerusalem Council that could be used for the church today in similar re-evaluations of understanding:
- The community’s discernment depends on imaginative reinterpretation of scripture.
- The community’s discernment depends on paying attention to stories about where God was currently at work.
- The discernment is made in and by the community.
This, too, is good as far as it goes. The church community should work together with the Spirit to discern God at work and how our understanding of God’s work needs to change over time.
And yet…
But this is where the book’s argument struggles. The section on the NT never argues that the NT accounts represent God changing his mind. It argues for the church’s “creative reinterpretation” of Scripture based on the leading of the Spirit, but the authors don’t try to argue that this represents a change of God’s mind. One could just as reasonably argue (as I think is more common) that God’s mind has always been for mercy and inclusion, but that humans have progressively had a clearer understanding of God’s mind over time.
If God’s change of mind is how we understand these interpretive evolutions, I am also left wishing for more insight into how we know that God’s mind has changed. What’s the trigger? The authors point to a series of interpretive changes of the past — they mention the acceptance of slavery as an example — but leave the how to the reader’s imagination. (They also ignore the many historic voices who spoke out against slavery even when the official voice of the church accepted it. Had God’s mind already changed and the church was just slow to catch up?)
Let me explain. No, it’s too much, let me sum up.
Am I happy where the authors have landed in their views of sexuality? Yes. Is it very heartening to see men admit their change of heart in public? For sure. But is their argument compelling? In my opinion, no, it’s not. I am sympathetic to arguments that God can change. It’s certainly the easiest way to deal with all the texts that say God changes his mind, and also the easiest way to think, say, about the efficacy of prayer. But the book fails to tie that idea to believers’ renewed understandings in the New Testament, and progressive revelation seems to me a much more reasonable interpretation given the textual evidence.
Curiosity → Attention → Love
I’ve been letting that quote from Ta-Nehisi Coates rattle around in my head a bit the last 24 hours, and it brought this quote to mind from the wonderful movie Lady Bird:
Sister Sarah Joan (SSJ): “You clearly love Sacramento.”
Lady Bird (LB): “I do?”
SSJ: “You write about Sacramento so affectionately, and with such care.”
LB: “Well, I was just describing it.”
SSJ: “Well, it comes across as love”.
LB: “Sure, I guess I pay attention.”
SSJ: “Don’t you think maybe they are the same thing — love and attention?”
Coates laments the lack of curiosity by those in great power of those with none. Another way to say that, I think, is that the lack of curiosity is demonstrated in a lack of attention. And, to riff on the thought from Lady Bird, that lack of attention reveals a lack of love.
To put it conversely: curiosity about our neighbor should result in paying attention to our neighbor, which should then result in us loving our neighbor.
Amen.
(Personal commentary: my wife is such an excellent model of this for me. She’s inordinately curious about people, including/especially our immediate physical neighbors. That curiosity results in attention and actual demonstrated love for those people. I could learn a lot from her.)
The great privilege of great power is an incuriosity about those who lack it.
…I don’t really care much for hearing “both sides” or “opposing points of view,” so much as I care about understanding the literary tools deployed to advance those views—the discipline of voice, the use of verbs, the length and brevity of sentences, and the curiosity of mind behind those sentences. It is this last I find so often lacking. Great canons angle toward great power, and the great privilege of great power is an incuriosity about those who lack it. That incuriosity is what afflicts the dullest critics of safe spaces and the like. But if these writers, teachers, and administrators could part with the privilege of their own ignorance, they would see that they too need safe spaces—and that, for their own sakes, they have made a safe space of nearly the entire world.
—Ta-Nehisi Coates, from The Message [emphasis mine]